Stuck

I miss Europe. I returned home hoping that I had changed - that somehow being in Europe, seeing the world, experiencing new things would change me. But I'm still as rigid as I had been before I left for Germany. I miss being more spontaneous, and feeling more confident. I felt alive and full of energy! So much to see, so much to discover, and so much to learn. But being back here in Singapore, I've been lethargic, listless and uptight about almost everything. Maybe it's the weather. Maybe it's the humidity. Maybe it's neither. So many thoughts congested in my head, so many words choked up in my throat. And I realized, that I'm exactly the way I was before. Retreating into my own little corner.
Back to square one.